is it too much?

am i asking for too much? maybe.
for days, weeks, months, i have been looking forward to one thing....
for the past few days, I have slept for only a few hours per day thinking that when THAT day comes, at least all the wait will be worth IT.
but i guess some things are not meant to be..
am i acting exaggerated? i don't really care.
am i the only one acting this way? i hope not.
i hope im numb. i hope this is all just a big joke.
i don't like this feeling.... it's like... im alone.